hurting

my head's hurting n i can't think straight.
i said a stupid suggestion n it lead to all these.
i was stupid.
i was neglected.
i wanted your attention.
that is all that i wanted.
it all came out differently.
i am stupid like that.
i dont know half the things i do anymore.
i'm going out of my mind.
i'm missing you already........

truly difficult

i just feel neglected!

you talked about everything under the sun except abt US.

you can go on with the conversation without me participating in it.

i need you.

i need to be with you.

i love you.

i want us.

but it's just me isnt it.

6 yrs on and i still feel neglected.

am i supposed to walk away for the second time?

walk away and never look back.........

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@nayle

"....25 years and my life is still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should that the world was made up of
this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out what's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take a deep breath
And I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I say hey, what's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I say hey, what's going on?
And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time in this institution
And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day for a revolution
25 years and my life is still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination..."