i want to ramble

so many things to say

i just don't know anymore

at times, i'm ok

at times, the anxiety is just killing me

the fights are all so childish now

sometimes, i'm ok and he's the unreasonable one

at times he's ok and i'm the irrational one

but it's all my fault

i made us like this

what should i do?

i hate being the one to initiate everything

from messages to phone calls and now our dates

i don't know

things are very intense right now

it's time i take care of myself

focus on myself

it's me time

Prioritse Work, Money, Family

Once you're back on track, see if he's worth it.

One day at a time.

Do not call him.

I'll be ok. :)

14 more days to a new job, a new ME.

Things to do;

Monday - 15/02/2010

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  Watch TV
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  Play some games online
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  Sleep early, I'll need to get use to waking up at 6am soon
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  Stay positive :)

Tomorrow will be a better day :)

I'll be ok :)

2010 - Feb

Emotions have been yoyo-ing...

We're both just so different.

When I'm calm, he gets riled up.

He does the things that he disliked in me.

How do I change and be better when he's turning into the "UGLY ME"?

I love him and knows that he loves me.

But why are we like this?