It could have been

our 66th months together, TODAY, but..........

Dear GOD,

Please grant me the serenity to accept

the things that I cannot change;

The courage to change the things
that I can;

And the wisdom to know the difference....

@nayle

Take a bow

I was in a cab on the way back home last night when this old familiar song played and it hit me right in the pit of my stomach.

I choked as the tears flowed...

It also reminds me of an entry made by this lady Sri, who said;

"i have always believed that the best people in life are indeed worth the anger, effort, hurt, money, tears, and time. these are the people who truly means a lot, that even when i'm completely drained, that even after what they have done which deeply disappoint me, and yet they still need something from me, i will still find the strength to give, somehow."

What I did not expect is for that someone to just walk out the door.

But then again, life, it has already been preordain.

Leave everything to fate?

Oh well, the masquerade is over....but let's just 'enjoy' the song, shall we?

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[One lonely star you don't know who you are]

Chorus:

I've always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true [you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[One lonely star and you don't know who you are]

(chorus, repeat)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
[You'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
[I've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

(chorus)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Say good-bye

where is all ended...

5.56pm - Workplace.
She dialled his number....

"She says: So let's not waste time and all. Do you want or do you not want to be with me?

He said: No."

That said, we're now thru......

@nayle

sweetheart

i am sorry for what has happened yesterday
i didn’t mean to hurt you like that.
i have never wanted to hurt anyone like that
especially not you

but i am also selfish
i am also unsatisfied
i want to be happy
i want US to be happy

if i were to turn back time
undo what was done
would you be wondering if I’d undo everything?
would YOU undo everything?

I DON’T KNOW !

i don’t know why anymore
everything happens for a reason
and without denying my deliberate misjudgments,
i dare say that

YOU COULD BE THE REASON!

and WE ALL KNOW who is one who gave the initial cause
i really hate the finger pointing game
but my dear SWEETHEART
you still believe in ANGELS…….

@nayle

My beginnings......

in here i seek solace
for all the things that i have done
i need to be anonymous
but i want to be heard

i need views to help guide me
insights to widen my perspective
i am in a rut
my emotions betrayed me

i am afraid

i am afraid one day, it’ll be my undoing
i need to be strong
you’ll read my stories

no more destructions, i promise

i need a good front
to be able to stand tall
i need to find solace
deep within me….

@nayle