I need to be ok

when we got back together,

i told myself not to repeat the same mistake

i've learnt that if i pushed you away,

you wont know ur way back

so many times you said that you're afraid that i might still hate you

but would i reconciled if i do?

we said our sorries, you hugged and you kissed me....

why do all that and promised this will be a better one than the last?

that we'll work it out somehow?

when all u do now is to run as far away from me?

i do...

i do hate it when you're with ur family

my calls go unanswered,

my messages replied an hr or two late...

and u stop making plans to spend time with me :(

it is different when u see me after work

you see me just for dinner before u head home

what's so wrong with me wanting more?

i want a date,

it doesnt necessarily be romantic

but

a day out and not when u're after work

but a day out in town, just US

it's a long holiday this week...

u not only got no plans for this week....

but you've got no plans for us..

do i have to continue enduring this pain for scraps of affection from you?

i know myself better

take care of myself

if he loves me, he loves me

if he wants me, he wants me

question now is do i want him treating me this way?

just take care of myself and be happy

when i am happy, things will be ok......

now go sleep :)