hate it!

hate is a strong word, no?
it sucks big time!
i'm all prepared for my date with you.
i'm dressed for a date.
i've been feeling awesome, amazing.
my monday's been great till you called.

i was delighted to hear your voice.
but i was not expecting the words that you said next...
i understand that you've been ill over the weekend.
i should have given you the benefit of a doubt.
it should be ok that we're not gonna meet up today.
today of all days, you decided to see the doctor, again.
it's ok.
if we're meant to be, it doesnt matter when we'll see each other next.
i've lived my life without you the past 6 mths.
eventho, i've been looking forward to this evening, all dressed up and all....
i am disappointed at myself for feeling this way.
i'm unsure if you're doing it on purpose or....
the feeling i'm feeling right now, just sucks!

i dont know what or how to feel anymore.




@nayle